Damn it all...

Well, I'm not quite as pissed today as I was the last time I wrote. Now I'm back to being depressed again. Joy...

Who the fuck do people think they are to try and play Kami with other peoples lives?! Honestly! That pisses me off so fucking much! Grrr! *deep breath* Okay, I feel alittle better now. It's just that I'm REALLY pissed at my dad... He's such an ass with NO sense of priority! He puts his beloved plants and booze above everything else! Nice thing to come home to after school... Empty house with no food, that smells like pot, with beer bottles all over. Fun, eh? Anyway, more to my point, due to his being-an-ass-ness him and Lynn are in another fight. After listening to both sides, and putting in what I already know, it was my dad's fault. Why he's mad, I'll never know. He just likes to pout until the other person comes crawling to him... I've learned that personally, he once ignored me for THREE months, just for skipping outta school for a couple of days! Well, that's what he's doing with Lynn, and being a total dick, which is driving her away. She's already thinking of filing for divorce. And if that happens, she wants to move outta the city. That means I would lose my step-brothers... Which isn't fair! Not to mention, it's not fair to Lynn.

Dammit, I really don't want to lose anyone else in my life right now. I've lost almost everyone I've ever trusted in the past few years. And I've gotten really close with the boys, I don't want to lose them too...

Another thing that bothers me is... Well, I'm not gonna say. Just basically drifting apart from someone who I had grown to like, alot. The person who I mentioned before about being my crush. I still can't believe I actually liked (maybe still like) him. I'm such an idiot. -_-

Well, on a lighter note, I guess, my Vegeta Lovers' Site turns a year old tomorrow! Technically, the 29, but this year isn't a leap year. Oh well... Anyway, I wanted to do some kind of update, but I just don't have the time! Maybe I can do something at school tomorrow... Damn, the 'Ask Vegeta' section is way behind too. Just like all my other updates!

I finally finished my Hell Mates Christmas! About damn time, eh? That only leaves what... four more to go. Plus my three quiz series, which some haven't been updated in months. And now I have like five sites to keep up. Atleast I won't get bored... -_-

Man, I'm burnt. I got like no sleep last night, 'cause I was at the boys'. We were up until like 3, and I was up at 10. We started a new little craze... The Para Para Brothers! lol! I'm Son, Matt's Don, and Dust's Bon. We even know their dance. And we got people on Habbo doing it too! XD

After that, I got to go to a Bury party. Woo hoo.... Man, it was so boring! And, I always feel out of place there, even though they're supposed to be my family. I've always been the little outkast child, and there's always a rumour going on about me in that family. So, usually I just sit alone with my notebook and walkman. Just like I did today. Fun, huh? Oh well, I'm glad I'm not what they consider to be a Bury! I couldn't be like that if I tried my hardest!

I'm now obsessed with the Murderdolls! I got into them by downing a few of their songs, and then I found their CD at MusicWorld! Yay! I love the songs Slit My Wrist and People Hate Me the most. ^^

But, for now anyway, my favourite song is Billy Talent's Nothing to Lose. I adore that song. It's just one that I can really relate with. Same with Scars by Papa Roach, and still I'm Just A Kid by Simple Plan.

Damn, *looks at clock* I gotta get going. Like I said, I'm burnt, and gotta get up early for school tomorrow. Kami, I hate going! Besides, no point in staying on anyway, I don't talk to anyone anymore. Shame... Well, see ya!

Quote of the Moment: "I see you, but you don't seem to see me..." - I dunno who, but I really like it.

Life Fuckin' Sucks!

Damn, life fucking sucks! The first day of second semester... And it's going to be one hell of a long one!

My classes are all long and boring; Science, Gym, Math, and History, but that's not even anything bad. I can deal with boring. But I hate the fucking people in them! I fucking could have killed Steve this morning, I hate him, and his little group of friends!

Okay, I went to Sceince, and to my annoyance I'm seated near the front (damn alphabetical order), and I'm stuck to Jeff Archer! Now, I don't really mind that, he's an ass, but I'm used to it. What I can't stand is the little comments, like when Jeff sat down, he slid his stool away from me, and Steve said "Better not get any closer to her *snicker*" Grrr, I fucking hate him! Everytime I do anything he makes a comment and get all his fuckin friends laughing. I had to deal with this is last semesters Science too, everytime I would talk to Dustin. If he does it again tomorrow, which he probably will, I'm seriously gonna fucking knock him out! Besides the fact the my teacher, Westbury is strick with his rules, everything else in that class is okay, I guess. I'm alone the whole time, noone to talk to, but that's another thing I'm used to.

Next is Gym, with Gay Pride, damn I hate her! She has to use me as an example for everything, like not wearing your uniform and swimming. We don't really get along, never have and probably never will. Aside from the teacher, I hate my class! They're all fucking stuck up preps, and the only ones that aren't are people from last year, that I didn't really get along with. Sarah was supposed to be in that class, but fucking Pyke had to change her classes. That's so fucking cheap! Now, another fucking class I'm alone in!

Now for lunch, like usual, my walkman was my only company. I saw Sarah, but all I got was a frickin' cheap 'hi'. Damn, now that she's back, she's with all her other fucking prep friends! I don't really care, it just pisses me off that she forgets how I was the only one who didn't get pissed at her for leaving Herman! I stuck with her through all of that! Oh well, she doesn't need me anymore.

Things between us haven't been back to normal fully since our fight. She got pissed at me because I showed her the scar from when I cut myself with my katana. She called me fucking hopeless, but I don't give a damn. Anyway, that's all over, and we're back to being 'best-friends' again, but it don't fucking seem like it! She's the only person I actually trust, and my only true friend, so I guess it's kind of upsetting to think of us not being friends anymore.

Well, back to school, my other classes aren't that bad. Math is painfully boring, and my teacher is weird as hell... Seriously! She was telling us about herself and just out of nowhere says "I have a confession to make... I'm in love with math." O_o Okay... And she was being serious! There is a good thing about that class though, Dustin's in it, even though we probably won't talk much. The last time we actually talked was back in last semester's science when he was telling me about him and his boyfriend... Some very interesting details! ^o^

History actually isn't that bad. Steve's in it, but he sits at the other side of the room, thank Kami! I actually don't mind that class, since it's only history from 1900-2000, so the more recent stuff. All the events that lead up to Canada's greatness!

Things fucking suck away from school! I'm moving with otousan this weekend, Sunday, and really really really don't wanna! Why, I don't want to put up with him being a fucking alocoholic, or a fucking druggie! And he's a fucking mean drunk too! Well, not mean, just a total fucking ass!

I think I'm alittle worried to because of last time I lived with him. It was fucking hell, I only stayed for two months, and ran away to Lori and Eric's. I had to, I would've fucking killed myself!

Not to mention that moving means leaving my mom too. Even though we argue all the fucking time, I'm gonna miss her. Especially when she moves to Maine. I think she's alittle pissed because I don't want to go with her, but I don't give a fuck. Let her bitch at me, nothing I haven't dealt with before.

I am gonna miss Koora though... Kaasan wants to get rid of her, 'cause otousan won't take her. She was the cat I got after Zoe got put to sleep. Atleast I still have Bebi though. ^o^

Fuck, I'm sooo tried! I haven't slept like at all since I think it was Monday, and I haven't been able to. I've been to paranoid, well, nervous. Why? Because I woke up early in the moring, like 6:30, and it was still dark (Canadian winter). I looked around and saw something white, like a figure across my room. It was fucking terrifying! I blinked and it was still there, so I turned on my TV, and it was gone. I know what I saw, it was a spirit or something. The reason it's bugging me so much is because it's reminding me of when we lived downstairs, and all the shit that happened. There was no other explanation for what happened down there other than something paranormal. And I'm fairly skeptical with that stuff. I've been getting the same awful feeling as I did down there too. I haven't told anyone, and I don't plan on it. I know the way people look at this stuff. "It's all in your head!" Yeah right, I know what I saw!

*sigh* I have soo many updates to do! I think I'm up to 7 fanfics, 5 sites, and 3 quiz series', and everyone expects them all to be updated regularly! I don't have the fucking time, and I can't update when I'm stressed. I'm so behind on all of them... My 'Ask Vegeta' sections is majorly backed up.

Wow, going on part 59 of ATTTDBZW! ^o^ Except, now I'm stuck on what to happen now, especially 'cause of the mixed responses I got from my last one; Compliments, complaints, insults, and even a couple death threats! Yay! *yawn* I think my annoyance and hate and lack of sleep have turned into giddiness. Joy... Oh well, maybe I can get something done.

*blinks* I really got off topic, huh? Well, I know there's a few more life things to bitch about, but I don't wanna anymore! ^o^ Actually, I want a nap... I'm sooo tired! Well, no matter what I'm gonna do, I'm done writing in this! Until next time!

Quote of the Moment: "Touch me and I'll kill you. Now, imagine if you were to hurt me..." - Someone off of poems-and-quotes.com